This sucks.

It's both a pleasure and a pain knowing that you will always have feelings for someone. :) I really wanted to call my ex on Christmas and say "Happy Holidays" but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Don't know whether it was pride or not...I think it was because I wasn't sure what the reaction was going to be. Our last exchanges were not that pretty. :) But that's what you do when you break up...you go through all the things that you believed were wrong, spell them out, and then shut them out.

I burned my butt in the tanning bed too. Add insult to injury LOL :) But today is going to be a GORGEOUS day and I am hoping to get some wood and start repairing my staircase. That...and hopefully finish painting this damn room. :) THREE DAYS! I think I am high from the fumes. Maybe that's the reason for my melancholy.

Time for some good music!