It's A Little Too Late, I'm a Little Too Gone

Love that song right now (by the talented Toby Keith). So, my romantic relationship with David is over (pour gasoline on it, Betty). Long story, many issues.

I did learn a good many things about myself. I learned that I have a form of "controller" personality in the guise of "the fixer" mentality (see this website). That's definitely something I think I can get a hold on.

I told a friend of mine what happened and I remember saying, "I guess I am just not cut out to hold down a relationship" and he said to me, "Actually, you are ready. I saw you do things recently that I have never seen you do for anyone before. You ARE ready, you just aren't with the right person."

I certainly handled a number of things wrong :) When I tried to fix some of them, attempt to react differently than before, or stand my own ground, things deteriorated rapidly. I definitely was a schmuck. I dug myself into a few holes that it is going to take a lot of work to get out of. Nothing I can't handle with a positive attitude.

On a lighter note, my quest for the Wii was a complete and utter failure. I guess I should have gotten up like at 5AM to wait outside of Target...FRELL that! Haha! I have Final Fantasy XII to play anyway. It's awesome.

Last night I sighed a couple of times really loud. Breathe out stale history, breathe in a brighter future. I'll be fine. In fact...I'm almost there already.