March 1, 2002

It's about 9:13PM on the eve of my 28th birthday. I'm not really sure how this is supposed to make me feel. Right now my heart is actually a bit heavy in a strange kind of way. They guy from Alabama is just not on my level. I guess it's silly of me to expect someone to actually return my calls? *laugh* And sometimes I think "I" have issues... So he was supposed to come in this weekend for my birthday and I have had no notice that plans had changed (other than the phone not ringing) so plans weren't made...am I bitter?

Let's just say I'm not singing love songs.

I allowed for the fact that he had a good bit of Drama (notice the capital) in his life, and just said "this is the way it is right now".

Boy was I wrong. He's 27 going on "can't deal with reality". I compromised my values and tried to overlook the situation, but this is just rude, immature, and my heart is screaming "GOD...why do you fall for men that are such FLAKES?" *laugh*

But TOMORROW is my birthday...and it's a whole new ballgame and I'm first at bat with no outs on the field.

Watch out WORLD...I'm back!